Hm. photographs d(>_- d)

I've taken these, and i like them for one reason or another. When were these taken? What do they mean? Are some kind of lewd?
I'm constantly torn between having a messy log like this and keeping only my more presentable photos neatly on display like they are here. So until a conclusion is reached, every six months will bring a brand-new photolog page, whether any of us like it or not.
It makes me very... sad... how i'm in a place where i've got nobody to photograph but myself and nothing new to look at or shoot. Extra tragic how i don't want to be sexualized the way i've always been, mostly because it leads to use, abandonment, and distrust at best. I don't really want sex at all. I really don't like still lives. It's bizarre watching my declines and limitations mount every month through my google drive folders of photographs. I desperately need to get to a place where things that are mine- room, objects, body- are not the bulk or even semi-majority of what i shoot. There are times and places where i've gotten close to that. This pattern is painful to see. I talked about it under one entry here, a log i still haven't updated to this year. I feel decades apart from the boy in those photos from even July 2023, which i haven't posted up to yet. The decline will be visible there once it is up-to-date, more-or-less.

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