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May Day demonstration, concern over sunburns, letting myself be nd in public, chatty apartment tour, smelling flowers in the air, free snuff shells, making a patch for roommate's birthday and finding a slug on my fabric spray paint can, a ladybug hitched a ride on my pants, eyeshadow for the first time + cool outfit + complimented by a passing stranger ("you're eating them up! look at you go!"), went to SEAF and enjoyed a lot of erotic art, stayed up until 2:20ish celebrating roommate's birthday and eating cake their partner made, got the apartment we wanted!, worked, added plaid panels to my cargo skirt for more movement, social anxieties, went with a friend to an art-walk after giving them some of my clothes, stand-off with a spider, sleepover, went to my first rave with my roommates (enjoyed it, got bored about 3 hours in and understood why people take stimulants before/during. will go to another again, i like dancing), sorted thru my closet a little bit more,
learned about Juniper Blessing's death, well before we knew her name,
depressed, angry, joined a safety group, sorted through my closet again, anxious, dyed the tips of my hair black, worked, walked, back and shoulder pain, kept falling asleep in my partner's bed (we were supposed to be getting dinner...), went to a market with her, napped in her bed (together, this time), finished reading Dungeon Crawler Carl 8, helped walk somebody home, more neck and shoulder and back pain, several bags of discarded clothes,
the last half of may got extremely chaotic and i didn't keep much of a log of anything. in no real order, i:
worked, packed, spent three days moving my items to the new place, stressed, cuddled, saw metamour, xi'an noodles, took more selfies (habit that appears when i'm not confident in my identity), adopted the grayA label, hung out with a friend at cal, avoided new sex, got told i had a sleeper build, got enthusiastic about dresses, the black-tip dye faded really fast and i want to do it again, cave-diving and General Apathy videos while cuddling with partner, few photographs, spent such little time on my computer, love of flowers, curb furniture, spent a week cleaning and moving my remaining items by bus, cuddled Cream, exhausted, tired, drained, social anxiety running high,
May was utter chaos, and kinda sucked like March and April. However... i can see a good time coming, and i hope it does.