My personal webpage for personal occurances

agender, he/him, demisexual, sexually charged low-libido

Enjoys Bruce Springsteen, The Replacements, Snow Strippers, emoslut666, trees, forests, thunder, the great eastern-european goth and new-wave movement of the 2010s, mountains, car rides, the Nikon Coolpix digicam series, queer sex, live music, the Southern Reach trilogy, leathersex, walks, bodies of water, tide pools, Anne Carson, God's Own Country...
Dislikes vapes. Smoke analog! Pick up a cigarette! Force yourself to go outdoors or at least awkwardly crane your neck out a cracked window! Those little electric things smell like toxic candied shit and i want them nowhere near me.

I wish things, structurally, were much different. The foundation of where i live is the foundation of myself, and i can't run from it. Instead: i pick my clothes off the floor, sometimes, do laundry, sometimes, have sex, eat pasta, pass out on dildos, listen to very few songs at a time, forget, read bits, browse. Always browsing. Always expecting to be observed.

I think more realism is needed, but as always everything online is curated- this is no different. I'm showing you what i want to show you, and i am not immune to caring about aesthetics. I know i'm being watched, and worse, i care about that. I'm a horrible exhibitionist, and i can't escape it- the effect online has been moving from account to account to account to account to account, hoping to lessen the eyes and craving them all the same.