My personal webpage for personal occurances

agender, he/him, demisexual

Enjoys Bruce Springsteen, The Replacements, Snow Strippers, emoslut666, trees, forests, thunder, the great eastern-european goth and new-wave movement of the 2010s, mountains, car rides, the Nikon Coolpix digicam series, queer sex/leathersex, live music, the Southern Reach trilogy, walks, bodies of water, tide pools, Anne Carson, God's Own Country...
Dislikes vapes. Smoke analog! Pick up a cigarette! Force yourself to go outdoors or at least awkwardly crane your neck out a cracked window! Those little electric things smell like toxic candied shit and i want them nowhere near me.

I wish things, structurally, were much different. The foundation of where i live is the foundation of myself, and i can't run from it. Instead: i pick my clothes off the floor, sometimes, do laundry, sometimes, have sex, eat rice, pass out on dildos, listen to very few songs at a time, forget, read bits, browse, forget. Always browsing. Always expecting to be observed.

I think more realism is needed, but as always everything online is curated- this is no different. I'm showing you what i want to show you, and i am not immune to caring about aesthetics. I know i'm being watched, and worse, i care about that. I'm a horrible exhibitionist, and i can't escape it- the effect online has been moving from account to account to account to account to account, hoping to lessen the eyes and craving them all the same.